Happiness or wellbeing?
What’s good for you is not necessarily what makes you happy.
I’d take difficult unhealthy exhausting happiness any time. [so I write]
But I have failed.
I saw the abyss, then closed my eyes.
I went for safe comforts instead.
I keep closing my eyes, in this tidy garden
and I think,
. [comfortable. scared]
. this neat empty wellbeing I’ve settled for
. will kill me.